Had diner with a group of friends tonight, who are all married or engaged!
And I was the youngest in the group. Unbelievable!!!
It is nice to be the youngest for a change as I have been working with really young people, managing them, coaching them, showing them the ropes, making sure they get the work done, its great to be a Senior because you feel like you have progressed but at the same time it makes you feel old. I miss the excitement of learning something new, and working on something new to challenge myself. Yes I am thirsting for more, more, more but at the same time I miss being young and innocent, and when it is ok to make mistakes because you are new.
The diner table subject tonight was of course Love.
Don’t we all love talking about Love.
I was fascinated by the many ideas thrown on the round table.
Actually there were more questions that answer.
Is the person we are with right now The One?
Do people get together because of circumstances and perhaps not Love?
Do people get married because it is the natural thing to do over the passage of time?
How long does it take for the passionate love to fizzle out into the love that feels like home?
Is marriage really ‘ai qing de fen mu’ (‘graveyard of love’)?
I was very quiet throughout, trying to absorb all these questions and couldn’t really find an answer within me. When asked what I thought, the words that came out of my mouth automatically was ‘yuan fen’ (destiny).
Perhaps the Love of our life at the moment may not be The One true love. But isn’t it amazing that destiny brought 2 people together?
I have to agree that most people get together not for Love but more because of circumstances and Love comes later. Perhaps that really is the courage to Love, to be brave enough to Love in the circumstances that you are in or at least learn to Love.
Most people get married because it is the right thing to do but I do believe that there are people who get married because of Love.
It is very sad when people feel that marriage is the graveyard of love. Love is Life. And Life is what you make out of it. If you want Love to be passionate you have to Live it with passion.
Then again I am probably the least qualified person to talk about love because I have always been a coward when it comes to Love. G said something which felt like a smack in my face. But it is true what she said and only real friends will tell you the truth. She said that I have never had the courage to Love. She is right the fear of getting hurt makes me a coward over the years.
She is right and hopefully I will be more courageous the next time round.
p/s – Love talk has tired me out. It is serious stuff. The conversations tonight reminds me of this Japanese drama that I watched ‘Love Shuffle’. On a less serious noted, S showed me where we are staying next week. Check this out. I have been really excited since he told me!! Feels like I am going on holiday! I will just pretend I am going on holiday and syok sendiri!