Will Be Missed

Went out for a meal with some new interns the other day.
Can’t believe it was 2 years ago that I was a intern myself.

It was the summer of 2005, I remember telling Pam, (the lady who used to clean my flat in my first year) that I was going to spend my summer in Birmingham on my own. She was in tears and told me that Birmingham is a dangerous place to be on my own.
Bless her.
I reassured her I would be fine.
It was all really exciting.
And scary as well…
I told my American friend, Pat that I don’t think I will make any friends because I am quite shy.
And she gave me the best advice ever ‘All you need is one friend and you will be fine.’
Of course I made more than 1 friend and I was more than fine.

Looking back now, I was this shy intern.
Can’t believe I have come so far. Still am shy as always…

It has been almost a year since I left Warwick.
Time seem to fly by quicker.
It has been tough being on my own.

I find it hard to cry these days. Nothing seems to hurt anymore.
But the floodgates were let loose the other day when I was watching the contestants on Dance X talking about how much they want to win the competition and how much support they have received from their family. That was it. I started sobbing in the kitchen. It might have been the stress of the exams or having suppressed my tears for so long.

Tears have dried up now and I am feeling ‘up’.
Definitely stronger than yesterday.

I miss my family who never stop believing in me, and whose love keeps me going everyday.
I miss the old friends who have been there for me throughout the years.
I have been really bad at remembering birthdays and stuffs like that but everyone at home is constantly in my thoughts and prayers.
I miss lying in my bed room though the wee hours of the night reading a book.
I miss eating food that oozes with love at every mouthful.
I miss just being lazy and pampered like a princess.
I miss being daddy’s spoilt little girl.
I miss the little family prayers we use to do every night.

Strangely I will miss UK….
I will miss the new friends I have made this year.
I will miss my cereal.
I will miss watching Ready Steady Cook when I come back from college.
I will miss the driving lessons.
I will miss the freedom and independence of being on my own.
I will miss the weather which is temperamental like myself.
It has been 4 years and I have grown fond of UK in a strange way.

Going home in 5 days… one special friend that I will definitely miss is Miss Natra Wannathepsakul who is the last of the Warwick Clan remaining this year and sadly she is finally leaving Warwick for good. I was secretly hoping she will stay for another year or two.

Will miss you Ef, hope your hair will always look cool and all your dreams come true.