natsukashii itamidawa
(it's a pain that lied in my memory)
zutto mae ni wasureteita
(that I did not remember for a long time)
demo anata wo mita toki
(But when I saw you)
jikan dake atomodori shita no
(only the time went backward)
"Shiawase?" to kikanaide
(Don't ask me, "happy?" )
uso wo tsuku nowa jouzujanai
(I am not good at telling a lie)
tomodachi nara irukedo
(Although I have friends)
anna niwa moeagarenakute
(I could not have that much passion)
ushinatta yume dakega
utsukushiku mieru nowa
naze kashira
(I wonder why only the lost dreams look beautiful)
sugisatta yasashisa mo ima wa
amai kioku
(sweet memories)
Sweet memories
Don't kiss me baby we can never be
So don't add more pain
Please don't hurt me again
I have spent so many nights
Thinking of you longing for your touch
I have once loved you so much
anokoro wa wakasugite
(We were too young back then)
itazura ni kizu tsukeatta futari
(Two of us hurt each other without vain)
iro aseta kanashimi mo ima wa
tooi kioku
(The faded saddness is already a memory of long time ago)
sweet memories
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
I Heart Tis Song - Makes Me Wanna Dance.
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Got To Stop Trying When You Love A Little Less
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
Count Down
Seems like summer is here. English summer is absolutely gorgeous. Perhaps it is because we only get a few days of summer in the year.
It was a lovely summer's day lunch break with the gals. Lots of people were having their lunches, sitting on the grass just outside St Phillips. Other than English tea, as ironic as it sounds as I have moaned about the English weather everyday of my life here, I will really miss the cranky English weather. I feel I am very much like the English weather.
I realised that there are sakuras outside my flat!
Good luck to GS and Ferny in KL!!!! Must give me address and contact ya.
My bunnies.
These are too cute to throw away. So I have adopted them. Its lovely in the early morning when they greet you with lovely shadows on the opposite wall. Can't seem to capture it on my camera though. So you just got to imagine the shadow greetings of my bunnies.
I have decided that I will stop blogging when I leave the UK. Its been a most amazing ride and I shall continue this phenomenal life of mine in the Real World. The date is not set yet but am hoping an easy to remember date like 9.9.09 if I can sort everything out by then. Pray for me everyone.
It was a lovely summer's day lunch break with the gals. Lots of people were having their lunches, sitting on the grass just outside St Phillips. Other than English tea, as ironic as it sounds as I have moaned about the English weather everyday of my life here, I will really miss the cranky English weather. I feel I am very much like the English weather.
I realised that there are sakuras outside my flat!
Good luck to GS and Ferny in KL!!!! Must give me address and contact ya.
My bunnies.
These are too cute to throw away. So I have adopted them. Its lovely in the early morning when they greet you with lovely shadows on the opposite wall. Can't seem to capture it on my camera though. So you just got to imagine the shadow greetings of my bunnies.
I have decided that I will stop blogging when I leave the UK. Its been a most amazing ride and I shall continue this phenomenal life of mine in the Real World. The date is not set yet but am hoping an easy to remember date like 9.9.09 if I can sort everything out by then. Pray for me everyone.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Its A Small World
Found out that my dining table in my flat is Made In Malaysia! Was overjoyed when I found the sticker at the bottom of the table. Wah, it might even had been made in my favouritest place in the world - Muar. I am so lucky to get a little bit of home here. Lucky me.
Went to a networking event and met this person who went to my second favouritest place in the world for his honeymoon like 20 years ago. When he said he went to Kuantan for his honeymoon, I was like wah thats my second favouritest place in the world. Makes me wanna go there for my honeymoon.
Someone asked me who the 'we' in my blog refers to, boyfriend kah?
No lah... 'we' as in PJ and friends lah. Its mainly a few close friends here in Birmingham. They don't blog and probably don't know the existence of this blog and are mostly work friends. If boyfriend I will use 'sayang' or 'darling' or 'honey'... Actually those of you who know me will know I don't blog about 'classified' stuff because secrets are to protect oneself...
There is no secrets by the way. Not at the moment anyway.
Went to a networking event and met this person who went to my second favouritest place in the world for his honeymoon like 20 years ago. When he said he went to Kuantan for his honeymoon, I was like wah thats my second favouritest place in the world. Makes me wanna go there for my honeymoon.
Someone asked me who the 'we' in my blog refers to, boyfriend kah?
No lah... 'we' as in PJ and friends lah. Its mainly a few close friends here in Birmingham. They don't blog and probably don't know the existence of this blog and are mostly work friends. If boyfriend I will use 'sayang' or 'darling' or 'honey'... Actually those of you who know me will know I don't blog about 'classified' stuff because secrets are to protect oneself...
There is no secrets by the way. Not at the moment anyway.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Moonlight Resonance
Busyness is doing too many things at the same time.
One step at a time. One step at a time.
Success is coming home knowing you have done your best.Its easy aint it.
Currently watching Moonlight Resonance. Its been a long time since a drama captured me. I have been watching a few episodes of this and that but never really got hooked. I think am hooked already.
One step at a time. One step at a time.
Success is coming home knowing you have done your best.Its easy aint it.
Currently watching Moonlight Resonance. Its been a long time since a drama captured me. I have been watching a few episodes of this and that but never really got hooked. I think am hooked already.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Let The Magic Begin
...Car J'ai besoin de toi.
(..Because He has a purpose for you.)
There are days when you wonder why am I here? what am I doing? what is the purpose of all these? why is this not working? why does this hurt so much?
Many Unanswered questions.
But when we are happy. We don't ask question like that. We don't ask why am I so happy? Because we know we are. There is no need to seek an answer for that.
Was watching Ajahn Brahm's dharma talk about how to be successful.
His first question was : Does happiness come after you are successful?
I knew the answer immediately. You have to be happy first and success comes naturally afterwards. Perhaps we all know the answer to that question unconsciously.
It is interesting because we often think to ourselves : Ah once I achieve this I will be happy. We often forget to enjoy the process and feel miserable trying to achieve the happiness that is actually within us.
No one can make us miserable but ourselves. Very often we are just too hard on ourselves. Like this week, I got an unexpected phone interview. They said they will call me back after I send them an updated CV (the first one was too brief) and after 2 days they haven't. So I started to have all these thoughts that heck maybe I didn't do the interview well enough, maybe I didn't leave a good impression, maybe my CV wasn't up to scratch. Fretting about 101 negativities.
Then Geong Sen said something which was the best thing I learnt this week. He said : 'Very often in life we tend to think that it is us that is the 'cause'. But the truth is it is probably not us, we have done our best and there are other factors like maybe there is a more suitable person etc.' He is such a sweetie. But I guess the whole point is we are always too hard on ourselves.
I got a phone call the day after I applied for the job. That itself is an achievement. If they don't call me heck its their lost or maybe its a blessing because I might not fit in there. And because of the phone call I realised my CV was not good enough and I had the opportunity to revamped it following fairy Godbrother's advice.
And I was fretting about not getting any response for the other job applications I applied for. Then I had a look again and realised the closing dates are not till end of May. I realised that I am worrying myself silly when I should be enjoying this whole process of starting a fresh.
And God has been so good to me. Like when I needed advise on how to update my CV. Like magic this senpai that I had not seen for ages appeared like a fairy Godbrother.
I can't stress how wonderful God has been to me. I never had to worry about getting a job. It has always been smooth sailing - getting the internship, and full time job afterwards.
This is the first time I have to go out there and cari makan. I should enjoy the whole process that I missed out after graduation. And of course I must have faith that everything happens for His purpose.
So..
...let His Will be done and the the magic begin.
(..Because He has a purpose for you.)
There are days when you wonder why am I here? what am I doing? what is the purpose of all these? why is this not working? why does this hurt so much?
Many Unanswered questions.
But when we are happy. We don't ask question like that. We don't ask why am I so happy? Because we know we are. There is no need to seek an answer for that.
Was watching Ajahn Brahm's dharma talk about how to be successful.
His first question was : Does happiness come after you are successful?
I knew the answer immediately. You have to be happy first and success comes naturally afterwards. Perhaps we all know the answer to that question unconsciously.
It is interesting because we often think to ourselves : Ah once I achieve this I will be happy. We often forget to enjoy the process and feel miserable trying to achieve the happiness that is actually within us.
No one can make us miserable but ourselves. Very often we are just too hard on ourselves. Like this week, I got an unexpected phone interview. They said they will call me back after I send them an updated CV (the first one was too brief) and after 2 days they haven't. So I started to have all these thoughts that heck maybe I didn't do the interview well enough, maybe I didn't leave a good impression, maybe my CV wasn't up to scratch. Fretting about 101 negativities.
Then Geong Sen said something which was the best thing I learnt this week. He said : 'Very often in life we tend to think that it is us that is the 'cause'. But the truth is it is probably not us, we have done our best and there are other factors like maybe there is a more suitable person etc.' He is such a sweetie. But I guess the whole point is we are always too hard on ourselves.
I got a phone call the day after I applied for the job. That itself is an achievement. If they don't call me heck its their lost or maybe its a blessing because I might not fit in there. And because of the phone call I realised my CV was not good enough and I had the opportunity to revamped it following fairy Godbrother's advice.
And I was fretting about not getting any response for the other job applications I applied for. Then I had a look again and realised the closing dates are not till end of May. I realised that I am worrying myself silly when I should be enjoying this whole process of starting a fresh.
And God has been so good to me. Like when I needed advise on how to update my CV. Like magic this senpai that I had not seen for ages appeared like a fairy Godbrother.
I can't stress how wonderful God has been to me. I never had to worry about getting a job. It has always been smooth sailing - getting the internship, and full time job afterwards.
This is the first time I have to go out there and cari makan. I should enjoy the whole process that I missed out after graduation. And of course I must have faith that everything happens for His purpose.
So..
...let His Will be done and the the magic begin.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Lake District
Windermere welcomed us with the rain! Typical lah.
Our first stop is Ferny and GS's favourite cafe.
In spite of the rain, we still damn semangat and brave through the rain and mud to get to the top of the hill for a good view of the lake.
After a rainy first day, it was only fair we had a sunny day the next day.
I heart this photo.
I love the Lake District. It reminds me of the Scottish lochs but its prettier me thinks. It also reminds me of the Salzburg highlands but of course Salzburg is prettier. I should stop comparing cause they are all different and pretty in their own way.
I guess every Easter in England has been really special. This might be my last Easter in England. Went for Easter vigil at a church nearby with Joanne. We even had a bon fire to light up the Easter candle. It was a really lovely mass at a little church.
Purikura at Beatrix Potter's World.
Sometimes I wonder what I have done to deserve all these. God's always so good to me. How many people get to spend Easter at the beautiful scenic Lake District. And to spend it with very special people that mean a lot in my heart. I feel like the luckiest girl on earth.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Macam A Happy Bunny
…macam rollercoaster ride.
Saw a double rainbow on way home yesterday!!!
And I thought seeing a full rainbow was cool.
Damn happy. Was smiling all the way home… staring at the rainbow and counting the colours. The rainbow was actually visible the whole ride home. Really made my day those rainbows. Although we were so engrossed with the rainbow we missed the junction into Birmingham and almost reached Coventry.
Got home realised I lost my Warwick cert. Was a wee bit upset that I wanted to cry but then heck its only a cert not that I lost my passport. Took Joanne’s advise and went to bed.
Anyway, called the undergrad office today and they said that they will do a new one for me but that will be my first and last replacement. Gonna cost me £25! Like I haven’t paid them enough school fees!!! Outrageous giler!
Then just a minute ago I realised today is Thursday…..back to feeling like a happy bunny....
Saw a double rainbow on way home yesterday!!!
And I thought seeing a full rainbow was cool.
Damn happy. Was smiling all the way home… staring at the rainbow and counting the colours. The rainbow was actually visible the whole ride home. Really made my day those rainbows. Although we were so engrossed with the rainbow we missed the junction into Birmingham and almost reached Coventry.
Got home realised I lost my Warwick cert. Was a wee bit upset that I wanted to cry but then heck its only a cert not that I lost my passport. Took Joanne’s advise and went to bed.
Anyway, called the undergrad office today and they said that they will do a new one for me but that will be my first and last replacement. Gonna cost me £25! Like I haven’t paid them enough school fees!!! Outrageous giler!
Then just a minute ago I realised today is Thursday…..back to feeling like a happy bunny....
Friday, April 03, 2009
548th Post!
I really like this photo. Something about the angle of my face or the camera or what lah that somehow or what lah make me look like I am 17. Hahahaha... Yes lah I have been watching Malaysian Dreamgirls 2. (Photo was taken at Beakonscott last weekend when we had proper cranky English weather. Apparently this weekend we will get a heat wave!Bring on the heat...)
Its already April!!
I can't believe 2009 has gone by so quickly.
And its Easter next weekend.
Really looking forward to next weekend.
I have survived a challenging but awesome 2 weeks at work and I just can't wait to get away next weekend.
'But you just got back from holiday!' everyone kept reminding me.
Ya but I need to get away from Birmingham sometimes.
Windermere here we come....
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Mana Datang?
Japan?
No
Taiwan?
No
Korea?
No
I was at the Emirates restaurant at Dubai and a few of the chefs working there asked me where I was from.
‘I am from Malaysia.’ Finally I told them.
Turns out one of the chef was from Kuala Lumpur. And the other chefs laughed at him for not being able to guess that.
It is funny because when I was in Taiwan, I remember one of the ah yi we met say ‘You look Malay but not the other two.’
Walking back home today, I met this Chinese lady who started talking to me in Cantonese. I surprised myself when I started talking to her in pretty fluent Cantonese. I am quite impressed by myself. She probably thought I was from Hong Kong. Who knows if you put in me in France I will start speaking like a French girl!
When I got home, I got a letter written in Mandarin from dad. I could only read half of what was on there without my dictionary but I was touched and tears welled up in my eyes even before I could open the dictionary.
I guess it doesn’t matter where I am from except that I am my daddy’s daughter.
P/s – Had such a good laugh on the train today. Actually everyday this week has been a good laugh. Work has been challenging but at least you have a friend to laugh with. Like proper laughing spree. Reminds me of the Malay words ‘ketawa terbahak-bahak’. I wonder if I will meet anyone as cool as her in future. Gonna miss her loads.
No
Taiwan?
No
Korea?
No
I was at the Emirates restaurant at Dubai and a few of the chefs working there asked me where I was from.
‘I am from Malaysia.’ Finally I told them.
Turns out one of the chef was from Kuala Lumpur. And the other chefs laughed at him for not being able to guess that.
It is funny because when I was in Taiwan, I remember one of the ah yi we met say ‘You look Malay but not the other two.’
Walking back home today, I met this Chinese lady who started talking to me in Cantonese. I surprised myself when I started talking to her in pretty fluent Cantonese. I am quite impressed by myself. She probably thought I was from Hong Kong. Who knows if you put in me in France I will start speaking like a French girl!
When I got home, I got a letter written in Mandarin from dad. I could only read half of what was on there without my dictionary but I was touched and tears welled up in my eyes even before I could open the dictionary.
I guess it doesn’t matter where I am from except that I am my daddy’s daughter.
P/s – Had such a good laugh on the train today. Actually everyday this week has been a good laugh. Work has been challenging but at least you have a friend to laugh with. Like proper laughing spree. Reminds me of the Malay words ‘ketawa terbahak-bahak’. I wonder if I will meet anyone as cool as her in future. Gonna miss her loads.
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