I Want To Know

This is a very Important post.

I want to know who actually is wasting time reading my blog.

So if you are reading this.

Leave a comment with your name even if I don't know you.

If you have a blog tell me tell me so I can link you.

No putting anonymous for this one please.

And if I know you, put a name that I actually know.
Not a nickname that you give yourself.

Yes I am talking to you.
Please leave me a comment so I know who you are.

I need to know so I can make a decision.

Back From Sunny London

London was fab. And it was so sunny.
I love to people watch on the tube.
I love how you can be in a squeezy tube surrounded by people of all sorts of nationality.
You hear people speaking French, Spanish, Italian, Chinese...

And the mix of people there.

There was this young man with funky hair and clothes.
And guess what?
He was wearing a rosary.
A white rosary.
I couldn't stop staring at his rosary cause I was amazed.
I wonder if he is wearing it as an accessory or he wants to make a statement that he is so proud to be Catholic.
Or maybe he is a priest?

And most of all London was fab cause I got to catch up with Ef and Aa.
We went for dim sum and spent the rest of the afternoon at Regent's Park.
Thanks for the good fun. See you both again soon.

Currently reading a book by K Sri Dhammananda.
I found this gem near the shoe cabinet at home.

Some beautiful phrases from the book:

'We live and work and dream,
Each has his little scheme,
Sometimes we laugh,
Sometimes we cry,
And the Days go by..'

'As you See - so you Feel
As you Feel - so you Think
As you Think - so you Will
As you Will - so you Act..

I shall comment no more and let you guys ponder for youself on these quotes.

Weekend Is Here!

The track..


The race...


The final = Rich v Jo.. neck to neck... more exciting than watching Formula One.



Go Karting was kinda fun.
Not really my kinda thing but it was a good fun and had a good laugh.
I thought of my bro and Ef. I know they would love love it.
Next time I will bring them there when they come.

Ok I was a wee bit terified actually.

I was constant throughout the race.

Constantly last.

I am just not competitive at all.

When people want to overtake me I actually slow down to let them pass.

Its Friday and I just want to slow down and chill.

Finally I finish watching Last Friends. I love love the ending. This is one of the best dramas I have watched recently.

I gave up watching Silent cause it was getting too sad.

I was telling my bro my plans for the future.
Like I really know what I want to do.
Truth is I got no idea what I want to do.

But life is short. We just got to live for the moment!!

Bon weekend everyone!

x

BusyDotCom

Going go karting tommorow.
Its free so might as well.

ZS, we go iff it is fun, cheap and I am good at it!

Going to see Miss Natra on Saturday.
So excited.

I made a little wish recently and it came true.

Wishes do come true...

Thank you for making the wish come true.

Song of the month - White Love Story

When I first heard this song, it gave me butterflies in the stomach even though I don't know the meaning of the song.

When I found the translated lyrics.

I knew why I felt that way...

White Love Story by As One (from drama Coffee Prince)
I didn’t know at first
Why your gaze, looking at me
Made me feel so flustered
I always wanted to ask
If you understood just a little of my feelings
Although I never told you

Now I know, how you were as lost
And wandering as I was
How you hurt so much, it kept you from sleep
Hold my hand,
I won’t let go of you again
I love you, as long as I breathe…

Things stood still
When you, who’d always treated me coldly,
Smiled at me that day

Now I know, how you were as lost
And wandering as I was
How you hurt so much, it kept you from sleep
Hold my hand,
Don’t let go of me
I love you, till the day I close my eyes in rest

I won’t cry
Now that you’re by my side
Thank you…
For giving me the gift of you

Teenagers

I was walking back home from church and this teen asked me for my number.

He is young enough to be my son if I had got pregnant at his age!

I am still very flattered.
Although I reckon he is probably a prankster.

I realised I am no longer a teen...
When you were young, you wish and wish you would grow up quickly.
Then now that you have, you wish and wish you didn't grow up that quickly.

I really really wish I will grow old gracefully.

One of my Indian friend at work brought mung bean curry with rice for lunch and they smelled so good. Reminds me of India. I really miss the flavourful food of India.

Mung Beans is actually green beans lah.
We have it as dessert (green bean soup) back home.

Never tasted them as a savoury dish.
When I saw mung bean at tesco, I thought I will try making a curry with it.
I didn't follow any recipe just cook it 'as I like'.



Fry onions and garlic with olive oil.
Add a generous tablespoon of curry powder.
I also added a dash of paprika and a spoonful of chilli.
Add in half a can of tomatoes.
Then add the can of mung beans and cook until it boils.
Season to taste with some sugar, salt and pepper.
Done.

If you want to make it more authentic add ginger, mustard seed,cumin or other Indian spices. I just used whatever I had in my cupboard. And the only thing I had was curry powder and paprika.

This is a really heart warming dish to have with a bowl of white rice and some salad.

Simple and healthy.
Minimum effort maximum satisfaction yo.

This Time Last Year And The Year Before

2007...

Memories of the legendary Warwick BBQs

2006...

Tenby and more Tenby.

Good times..



I watched Sex and The City last weekend.
It didn't blew me away.
Some of my friends who watched it cried.
It didn't move me that way.
Maybe I am just emotionally retarded.

But I love love Miranda's story.
Forgiving someone you love is such a nobel idea.
Even though I can't imagine myself doing it for real.
If my man ever cheats on me, I don't think I can be gracious enough to forgive.
Maybe I will but I will never forget.
Is it possible to forgive without forgetting?

Laptopless Night Part 2

I felt really lost without my laptop yesterday night.
My housemate was typing away on hers while I look at her in envy.

Nothing much was on TV and I ended up watching Big Brother.
Where the hell did they find all these crazzzzzy people?
Are these people for real?
Mental.

I have been cooking very traditional food lately.

Mi hun kueh.



Longan drink...



My bento today!!



It is yesterday's leftover dinner. Rice, mixed veg and soya mince cooked in black bean garlic with dried radish. Delish!!

Bento lunch makes me very very happy.

Happiness is also when you get invited to a wedding and you can make it!

So happy for my friend.
This is actually the first time I get invited to a wedding by a friend.
Many more will come I guess.
Soon they will be giving out red eggs for their first borns, inviting you to their kids birthdays...

Scary stuff that is...
Babies I mean.

Laptopless Night

I was lazy today and didn't prepare lunch.
So I popped into M & S. I always always get the same thing whenever I go to M & S for lunch.
It has to be the 3 bean wrap. I love the 3 bean wrap from M & S.
I always tell myself I will try something new at M & S but in the end its always always the 3 bean wrap.
It has to be that.

I guess its like dad ordering a chicken rice whenever we go to a food court.
Its got to be chicken rice and ais kacang for dad.
I ordered some ais kacang for dad at KLIA.
'Kurang manis ais kacang' (less sweet ais kacang) and I realised why ais kacang is so yummy. Its the sugar lah. Ais kacang kurang manis taste awful.
Never ever.
And I was just being a thoughtful daughter.

Starbucks hot chocolate...
I don't know why but whenever I drink it I think of soya bean and it even taste like soya bean.
I like starbucks hot chocolate. It is not too sweet and taste like soya bean.

I slept really badly yesterday.
You know you have slept badly when you wake up with your whole body aching and your head pounding.
I made a decision when I woke up this morning.
A decision that hopefully will make me sleep better tonight.
I am sure it is the right decision.

And today, I have decided to have a laptopless free night.
I have been spending way too much time on the computer.

So I am sending laptop for quarantine in the office locker.

I want to stay in bed and read a book tonight.
I am sure I will sleep well tonight.

The Happiness In Me

Someone at work said I have a nice voice.
Seriously?
I always cringe if I hear my voice recorded.
It is the weirdest voice in the world full stop.

Spoke to Ef after work and she is very happy.
Its like I can sense the happiness radiating out of my mobile.
I am so happy that you are happy Ef!

Anyway, lately I have been having a kind of weird inner happiness.
It is difficult to explain.
There is a kind of peaceful happiness within me.
And I don't even know why I feel that way.

Sometimes I feel like the quiet happiness in me wants to shout to the world and tell the world that it is alive.

Ok probably no one gets this posts.

I am feeling happy at the moment.
Not as happy as Ef.
It is just a kind of 'silence' happiness perhaps.

Perhaps I know why I am happy yet there is this fear that the happiness will vanish just like how it arrive into my life so unexpectedly.

Bestest In The Whole Wide World

Everyone thinks their dad is the best.
But seriously I think mine is The Bestest in Muar and some say Sgabong.

He is pretty macho for a pensioner. See previous post.

Mum told me something that really touched me when I went home recently.
'You know your dad was standing at the arrival hall for like 40 mins waiting for you.'

My flight was delayed lah. Stupid flight.

Mum continued : 'We all asked him to sit down and wait but he was scared you can't see us and he even said 'I lost so much weight, don't know if PJ will recognize me...''

Of course I will recognise my 'macho man'.

Sometimes when the going gets tough I close my eyes I can hear my dad sing:
'Its ok Its alright Its a Gooood try...'

Happy 'belated' Father's Day pa.

Love you.

x

Amazingness

Spent all night watching Silence.
Its been a while since a Taiwan drama manage to attract me.
I watched a few but never got round to finishing them.
They always get a bit draggy after like 2 episodes.
But Silence has managed to get me hooked!

This is a typical love story lah.
Boy meets girls. Get separated and meet again bla bla bla..
And I reckon the ending will be a sad one like all love stories.

I realised today how wonderful God has been to me.
Thank you Lord for all the amazingness.

Happydotcom. x

Jing Jing De

Kong Qi Li Duo Zhe Shen Me You Dian Lang Man De Xin Dong
Wo Tou Tou Kan Ni Ni Ye Tou Tou Kan Wo
Shi Jie Shang Duo Le Shen Me Hao Xiang Bian De Hen Bu Tong
Zhan Zai Ni Shen Bian Zhe Yi Qie Dou Hao Kuan Kuo

Wo Hai Zai Deng Zhe ni Jing Jing De Ai Wo
Zhi Yao You Ni Pei Wo Jing Jing De Jiu Zu Gou
Ni Ye Zai Deng Zhe Wo Jing Jing De Wen Rou
Jiu Zhe Yang Shou Qian Shou Jing Jing De Kan Zhe Tian Kong

Xin Li Mian Cang Zhe Shen Me Ni Zhi Xiang Yao Rang Wo Dong
Yuan Lai Wo De Meng Ye Jiu Shi Ni De Meng O
Zhi Tiao Shang Xie Le Shen Me Wo Hao Xiang Yao Ting Ni Shuo
Rang Zi Zi Ju Ju Chong Man Wo Men De Xiao Rong

Yong Yuan Yao Ji De Na Tian Bi Ci Xu Xia De Cheng Nuo
Shun Jian Dian Liang De Huo Hua Shi Wo Men De Yong You

Jing Jing De Shou Qian Shou Shi Zui Jian Dan De Meng

This is a song that you have to grow to love it.
I didn't think much of it unlike Harlem's other song's who blew me away the first time I hear them.

But I have grown in love with this song which is about 'silent love'.

I think loving someone silently is probably one of the nicest feeling in the world. I don't even know how to describe it. Damn jiwang me thinks.

Anyway, to all those of you who are loving me silently.. thank you.

Ok that was meant to be a joke. Laugh lah...

Happy Weekend!

So Many Questions.

'What is the purpose of life??'

I got asked this question first time at a dinner the other day.

I guess the 'Christian' answer to this would be to be God's vessel of life, to live God's life. ( I was invited to this Christian (not Catholic) dinner by some mutual friends and almost missed The Apprentice. But I didn't miss it. Lee won. Gutted for Claire.)

But what does it mean to live God's life?

Personally my purpose of life is just to be happy and be thankful for everyday because Everday is His blessing.

I think God wants us to live 'our' lives because he gave us the 'free will' to decide what we want just like He gave Adam and Eve the 'choice' to eat the apple.

Then the next question that came was 'Who is God?'

Again I think this is something personal and unique to each and everyone of us.
To me God is someone who has always been around for me like family who will never forsake me.
He was there for me, He is here for me this very moment and He will always be there for me. Always.
I am nothing without Him. It is difficult to describe but I know He is guiding me everyday.

Then the next question was God wants something from you...

I think what they are trying to say is I should be pro-active and seek God.

I do seek God in my own personal way.

The thing that I don't really like about some overly evangelical Christians/Catholics is that they want to convert everyone.
I know it is with good itentions but I think everyone should choose for themselves.

Perhaps I feel that way because my dad is a Buddhist.
He gets annoyed when people try to 'convert' him wanting to 'save' him.
Actually I feel that way too. Leave my dad alone.
Personally I don't think dad needs any 'saving'.
He is a wonderful person. He has touched all those around him.
And I believe God knows that and I also believe that the goodness shown by my dad is through His loving grace.

I think there is a 'best' religion for each and everyone of us.
God gave us the 'free will' to choose.

Then sometimes I wonder what if I was born a Muslim.
I guess I would still get to know God in a different way.

So He is omnipresent working in different ways for different people.

He gave us the 'free will' to live the life he has blessed us with.
And we should make this gift phenomenal.

Thank you Lord for this beautiful gift of Life.
Amen.

Take Picture!

I was reading Simon's post and I thought the second last paragraph was quite funny.

I think the 'photo taking of everything' is a cultural thing.

I remember my first trip to Barcelona in my first year. We took sooo many photos!!
It was the first time I had a camera and I think there were hundreds of photos that I took and I wanted to develop them all. Dad thought I was nuts.

It feels like so long ago since I had my first camera and took my first photo with it.

I don't take as many photos these days.
If I take a photo, it will be something really special to capture a scenery that took my breath away or to capture something really special that you want to remember.
But Grace said 'What is the point of photos without people in it?'
Well, we don't need photos to remember people or moments spend with them.
We will always remember people in our hearts.

Having said that, I am grateful for the many moments of fun and happiness that my friends have captured on photos which always brings a smile to my face.

Thank you for the memories and the photos.

The Guilt Part 2

I read the comments from KH and Aunty MN when I woke up this morning and I was truly overwhelmed. Don’t even know why I got a bit emo, almost want to cry, almost.

Anyway, then I read Kinky Fairy’s post and got even emo but I didn’t cry lah.

A morbid thought came to me… ‘ What if the world were to end say next month? What to do? What to do?’

There is so much I want to do that I have not done.

It has always been my dream to bring my mum to Rome.
It is probably her dream to go there too.
I brought my little bro there but have not had the opportunity to bring mum and dad there yet.
I keep asking them to come but they keep changing their minds – Yes..No…Yes..No..Don’t Know…Haiyoooo…

And I would really really like to go on a family holiday somewhere anywhere.
Dad used to bring us on road trips to faraway places like Terenganu to see turtles.
I hope one day I can bring him to faraway places too.
Bring him to see kangaroos in Australia, pandas in China, cheetahs in Africa…

There are also a few places I want to go before I die (sound so morbid)..
Japan – I want to go to Japan, not so much Tokyo but I really want to go to Hokkaido!
Mauritius – Heard so much about it from Stella, of course have to go before I die lah.

And I want to say thank you to you, you and you for making my life phenomenal.

Actually, I will probably just quit my job and go home if the world were to end next month.
And just spend the rest of my days in Muar sweet home, eat lots of otak-otak!

The world can’t end next month. I have so much I want to do still!!!

Ps - Going to a dinner party tonight but all I can think of is if I will make it home in time for the Apprentice finals. I hope Claire wins.

The Guilt

Being home this time made me realised how much I miss spending time with my family.

I miss eating with my family.
I miss being a couch potato with my dad in front of the TV.
I miss helping my mum do the housework.
I miss those spiritual conversations I have with my aunt.
I miss listening to the animated gossips my dad tells.
I miss having a fight with my mum over the silliest things.
I miss having my brother to do things for me.

Every time I go home, I feel guilty for spending so little time with my family because I am working abroad.

I realised being away I have missed many weddings, birthdays, anniversaries, gatherings...

Yet going home this time, made me realised how proud my parents are of me.
Dad and mum keep reminding me how blessed I am to have been given the opportunity to study abroad and also that I have been extremely lucky to get a job abroad.

Everyone thinks it is 'great' to work abroad.
And I always say 'ho kwah bo ho jiak' ( nice to see not nice to eat).

Universtiy was fun but working abroad is actually very challenging. ( I want to say difficult but I want to use a more positive word because positive thoughts will channel positive energy and attract positive things into life.)
It is not as glamorous or cool as it sounds.

Sometimes I feel like packing my bags and go home but friends working at home will tell me how tough it is over there. In fact I am having an easy time here according to them. I guess everywhere we go different challenges await us and it is up to us to stand up and face these challenges.

Having lived in UK for almost 5 years now, I have grown very fond of UK. I feel safe here which I don't when I am in Malaysia with everyone constantly telling me to be careful of snatch thiefs etc. Like when I had to take a late night/early morning bus to the airport, I felt so safe even though I was on my own. I know I probably won't feel that way if I am at Pudu. Then there is this other thing about special Malay rights in Malaysia which many are discontent in Malaysia. It is probably one of the main reasons, many non-Malays want to leave the country.
But despite all its short comings, Malaysia will always be home.
The feeling whenever I touch down at KLIA is 'I am so glad to be home.'

But yet sometimes I feel like a foreigner in Malaysia especially in KL.
KL is one of those cities that I don't think I will fit in. It is just a feeling.
Actually I don't even know if I will fit in anywhere.

I love UK but it is just so far away from home and everyone else.
Hmmm...
Thinking of working in Singapore or Australia or somewhere in Asia to be closer to home. Would really really love to live and work in Japan for a bit if I can find a job there.

I guess I will know where to go when the time comes...

At least I know I have somewhere I can go back to come what may...

I told my aunt having travelled to many places, I still think Muar is the best place in the world. Sometimes I wish I had never left Muar but if I had never left I would not have known that it is the best place in the world.

Yes everything happens for a reason.

Smile That Shines Through The Tears - Ella Wilcox

It's easy enough to be pleasant
When life flows like a song
But the man worthwhile
Is the one who can smile
When things go dead wrong
For the test of the heart is trouble
And it always comes with the years
And the smile that is worth
The praises of earth
Is the smile that shines through the tears...

The Hike

The hike in fuel prices has caused lots of protest in Malaysia.
People are blaming the government for the price hike and protesting that it is unfair and that Malaysia being an oil supplier should not charge so much for petrol. I am disgusted that some parties wrongly use it as a political agenda.

The truth is the hike is because of simple economics of demand and supply. When demand rises, prices increases. Simple as that. Over the years, the government has been subsidising the price. This market interference by the government is actually not healthy over the long run because the price should be determined by market forces to achieve equilibrium in demand and supply. All these might sound very theoretical economics but it is how the whole economy operates to achieve efficiency.

The main problem with the inflationary pressure in many countries at the moment is because of the boom in China. The rural folks in China who used to be farmers have now migrated to the cities to work. Because of the industrial boom, and agricultural decline,China now has to start importing food to fulfil its increasingly affluent population. This significant increase in demand from China has led to the global price hike in food and oil prices.

While the UK and US is facing the consequences of the credit crunch, the emerging economies like China and India are booming. The boom however will not be able to cushion the recession brought about by the credit crunch of the west because of the inflationary pressure due to significant increase in demand from China.

This is a time to be prudent for we have become a wasteful society.
We waste food.
We waste time.
We waste money.

Perhaps the price increases is a wake up call for us not to be so wasteful.

37 years from now

Happy Birthday to my baby brother!!

Because it is your birthday, I present you with some food porn.











Actually there should be more but unfortunately I always finished the food then remember forgot to take picture. Hehe..

When you grown up you will be tall, handsome and macho like this guy here.



Have a hippy birthday yo! Xxx